thankful

So it's sunday, 1:00 PM.

Yeah. :P I feel like this blog might probably be one of the longest i've ever made. Shit! But probably worth reading?? If I have readers... Hahah! Since i'm not doing anything, I decided to blog?? stuuuuuups, I am already bloggagging. Haha.

On the serious note:
I don't think I've ever felt this good or happy, &it's an amazing feeling. I don't want to fuck things up.

As I was painting my nails earlier, I was just thinking about shit. But then again, I'm always thinking about something. &I'm beginning (well no, not BEGINNING, but you know.. haha) to realize that I have soo many wonderful things happening to me. I'm graduating in less than 3 months. About 4 years ago, I was like gotdamnnn... high school is gonna take forever! but that's a lie. It scares me, 'cos time is just flying by, like literally! I don't know if that's a bad thing, or a good thing. But since i'm the type of person that always has that "The glass is half way full" mentality, I know, just know that it's good.

Other than high school, my friends are absolutely great. My Japan friends, I know that when high school is over, we're still gonna be together. no matter what. It's been 6+ years with them, &we're still going strong. My REAL friends, Joy & Fran. They simply make my senior year. &The other homies, they know who they are... They keep me sane, even though i'm insane and crazy and weird. Haha, everything is just so chill, drama free, and fun. Family... even though we're kind of on a rocky road the past few months. We're still in this "family" thing together. &it's pretty good so far, too.

iCON! After moving from Japan, I never would of expected myself to turn out into a dancer, hiphop dancer to be exact. It's cool, the girls are great &have so much ahead of them. We're not just a dance team, we're a fucking family. Come watch us, we're pretty SICK.

Last but not least,
I'm thankful to have an amazing boyfriend. Jesse is someone I seriously, would NEVER have thought to be with. Our one month is this Friday, wow. One month. I swear, to me, feels longer than that. I love spending my time with him, &that's different for me. I usually don't like seeing that person all the time. But with him, I miss him whenever he's not by my side. I don't want to seem like a sappy ass. Haha! but it is what it is. He tells me that i'm perfect. But really, he is. He proved me wrong when I said that all guys are fucking dicks, assholes, and jerks. Jesse's different. He's the one I can be incredibly weird to &he won't really be like WHATTHEFUCK!!! Hhaha well sometimes maybe, I dont know, dont know, I dont know!, Haha. You may not get it, but whatevs! I do! Haha. The simple things we do, hang out, watch movies &whatnot, is actually super fun. if he were to read this, he'd probably be like "totes CORNS!!!" hahahaha. But there's no other way to say it, than how I'm already saying it. 'Cos I don't say shit like that :P So it's all pretty new to me. I just know that, what we have is something I want to keep for quite sometime. &whatever you choose to do, Fresno State, MSJC, fuck I don't know. I got you. &I know it's not for another while, but I just wanted to vent it out &let you know: It will work out, we'll find a way. :) This could be longer, but I'd rather keep it quiet and a mystery to what else I have to say. Just thank you for everything, baby.




I didn't fall for you, You helped me get back onto my feet.